First Touch by Laurelin Paige – BECKY’S REVIEW

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The Fixed Trilogy is one of my favorite series and I was given an advanced reader copy


4 stars



Emily Wayborn is finally her own woman.

After a string of shameful relationships and reckless partying with her best friend Amber, she’s now a successful voiceover actress, her wild past and everyone in it firmly behind her. Until she receives a cryptic voicemail from her former friend that sends her spiraling into the darkness she thought she had outrun. One thing is clear from the message, Amber is in trouble.

Determined to track down her friend, Emily follows a chain of clues that leads her to Reeve Sallis, a gorgeous and equally dangerous hotelier known for his power games and shady dealings. Now, in order to find Amber, Emily must return to her playgirl ways to uncover his secrets and track down her friend. But as she becomes more entangled with him, she finds she’s drawn to Reeve and his depravity despite her growing conviction that he may be the one responsible for Amber’ s disappearance.

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I wanted to read First Touch because I love The Fixed Trilogy – it’s one of my favorites. There’s also been a lot of hype around this book, which really excited me. I also knew that this book was going to be different from what I normally read, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing because I’ve read and loved books that have been out of my comfort zone (Hello, Indebted Series?). But, after reading First Touch, I have some mixed emotions about this book.

While the plot of this book isn’t exactly the newest, I loved it; it’s suspenseful and engaging. Laurelin Paige does a really good job of thoroughly writing this story. The central plot is based on an actress, Emily Wayborn, and her search for her missing friend, Amber Pries. When the story begins, Emily is already on the hunt for Amber. Laurelin Paige expertly weaves backstory into the present day plot, which gives the reader a fully fleshed out plot. At one point, I thought there was too much attention given to the backstory, but I soon understood its necessity to the present-day plot. The ending is also killer. Yes, it’s a cliffhanger but it’s a good one. I read it and I said to myself, “Oh…crap! Now I have to read the next one!”

 I spent much of the book hating Emily, absolutely hating her. Even now that I’ve finished, I still don’t like her. There is nothing about her that I can personally connect to; I don’t understand her motives. She gets off on being degraded and I don’t understand why. This is something that I hope Laurelin Paige clears up. Why does she get off on being used by men? There’s nothing in her backstory to explain why she likes this kind of treatment. She uses men for material goods and she doesn’t care.

Emily doesn’t really seem to a have a lot of self-worth. I think if she actually valued herself, then she wouldn’t let herself be used by a man. And being used is at the heart of her relationships with both Amber and Reeve. Together, Amber and Emily used men.They shared a man and reaped the benefits financially. Again, I don’t understand Emily’s motives for this behavior. Emily and Reeve are also using one another. Emily wants information about her missing best friend and uses her relationship with Reeve as a method to get information. She also reverts back to her behavior of sex in exchange for material goods. It isn’t until much, much, much later on that Emily redeems herself by realizing she wants Reeve for Reeve. She doesn’t need the stuff. FINALLY!

As for Reeve, he is not your typical dominant Alpha billionaire. He doesn’t seem to cherish and treasure Emily. He takes what he needs, gives Emily what she needs and that’s it. Again, it’s not really until almost the end of the book that I actually start liking Reeve. Because then it seems as if he does care for her, that their relationship is more than just dom and sub.

The sex scenes….there are some truly hot scenes in this book. I mean, like scorching. But there were also scenes that I really didn’t care for. And I don’t consider myself a prude really. But, I have my limits and Emily and Reeve’s sex life tested them.

My four-star review might surprise you considering I hated Emily for 90% of the book but this is a really well-written story with some complex characters. A well-written story deserves praise, even though I couldn’t connect to Emily and Reeve. I have high hopes for the second book, and they include Emily finding some self-worth and starting to love herself.

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