SHAME by Rachel Van Dyken – Jenn’s Review



Loved all the other books in the series.


4 stars


Everything done in darkness, will eventually be brought into the light.

I ran, but all it did was keep me one step ahead of my past. I tried to start over; new name, new identity. But you can’t change your soul.

A fresh start at college was just what I needed. For a while, it worked. I was the party girl, the one that seemed confident, but it was a lie.

When guys kissed me–I felt only pain. 

When they touched me–Nothing but fear.

Deep inside, every girl wants to be the beauty in the story, to find someone that will see you as their world. 

But the truth? I was the beast. And as much as I wanted redemption, I wasn’t fool enough to think I’d ever get it. 

Until he walked into my life.

I wasn’t prepared to fall for someone. My scars were too deep, the wounds too raw. But he offered me peace, he offered me security. I should have known it was just another lie–I should have known that falling in love with my professor was a bad idea.

But I was powerless to stop myself from falling. 

And he was powerless to catch me.

Because the darkness finally caught up to me, and as fate would have it, a cruel twist almost bled me dry. But I’m stronger than I knew. I’m stronger than you think.

You think you know my story, but you don’t….after all everyone has Shame in their lives– and I’m no longer afraid to show you mine.

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*Shame is the fourth book in a series, but can be read as a standalone.*

It is almost impossible to review this book without spoiling the constant twist and turns and shocking plot twists, so here is just a brief overview.

Lisa has fled her previous life and started a new one, complete with a new name, at the University of Washington in Seattle. Very few people know who she used to be, or the terrible things she has done. She is trying to escape her past, but her past has finally caught up with her.

Tristan has put his life on hold and come to Seattle for Lisa. She just doesn’t know it yet. Tristan needs answers about the past, a past connected to Lisa, and only Lisa can give him the answers it needs.

Under the guise as a professor, Tristan grows close to Lisa; closer than he even he expected. Knowing once she knows the truth about who he is, she will walk away forever.  He just wants to hold onto her as long as he can.

“That isn’t attractive.” I scowled. “Pointing out all my weaknesses.”

“It’s only fair that I point yours out, since mine are so obvious.” Tristan eyed me up and down.”

“Name one.”

His whisper was so low I almost didn’t hear it. “I’m looking at her.”

 As the relationship between Lisa and Tristan grow, so does the intensity surrounding Lisa. This is a fast paced, suspense filled story. Each turn of the page brought about a new twist or development.  My heart was in my throat multiple times and I found myself yelling at the characters. Shame is a true page turner. I kept telling myself, “one more chapter,” which would turn into seven more chapters. It just completely sucks you in. Despite the intense story line, we had Gabe and Wes there to lighten the moods. The back and forth banter between them always made for laugh out loud moments.

“And can I just say I’m-the-bomb-dot-com?”

“We discussed your usage of that phrase,” Gabe growled. “Twice.”

“Just like we discussed your inability to spell Seahawk correctly….twice.”

“Just throwing it out there,” Gabe said defensively. “I was confused about part of it.”

“It’s Sea and Hawk,” Wes shook his head. “Spaces confuse you?”

Despite all of the underlying drama, suspense and tension, Shame was a beautiful love story about letting go of your past and choosing to move forward. It was a wonderful conclusion to the Ruin Series and is a definite must read.

“I’d rather you hate me forever yet let me in your life, than love me for a moment and push me away.”

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